Come what may, and LOVE it

As you can see, I am serious about protecting my self and family. It is only a pellet gun, and not even loaded, but I feel safer.

Though this is hardly an original theme, ( see here) it is an all together worthy one. There are many forces I am struggling with now, including cold, pain, fear, loneliness, and rats. I am dealing with all in my own way, and every day brings moments of bright rays of sunshine.

I discovered this delightful simple instrument again. I had forgotten it. It derives motive power from the magic illumination of the sun's rays. (For a more technical discussion, including historical background, see here. Some, like me, are fascinated by these esoterica. I know others are just bored.) When the sunshine strikes it, the vanes begin to rotate. It is an indicator or the sun's illuminating and warming power, even on the coldest of days. It is magical.

Psychosis

I woke up this morning in a sweat, worrying about a small donkey that somehow shas secretly hidden itself in my dad's house. It is not a very big threat, because I think the creature is quite small, I'm not sure the exact stature. He is constructed of something like paper. Perhaps even made by one of the grandchildren at play on thier many previous visits.

Anyway, this paper animal now lurks upstairs in my dad's house. He is endangering my parents in some way because they aren't aware of him and are not defensively prepared. I will move my quarters into the main house immediately, and stand guard, so that nothing happens. I don't know what this creature is trying to do.

I also recognize that he isn't real, but I must satisfy very real fears. Right Now!